Disappointed

I've had a good week. I've eaten under 1200 calories every day and I've been drinking 2 litres of water every day, which I hate, but my scales haven't budged at all. I've exercised, ok  not every day, but about three times and it just doesn't make sense.

I've got my official weigh in later and I can tell it's not going to be a good evening.

Worst Week Ever?

I lost a pound this week and I'm so disappointed. I was good all week, did more exercise than I ever have and that was the result. I know I lost a lot last week but even so I feel a very crushed.

I think the 3 stone for Christmas target is out of the window now - if I carry on like this I might be able to lose a stone.

I had pizza for dinner last night. I'd already planned to before the disaster weigh in because I was really craving it and needed to get it out of the way, but now I've had it and it's over. I feel a bit guilty and I went over the calories I allow myself by 86 cals, but the rest of the week I was under so I don't feel too bad. I'm going to be really good this week though.

Plan for the week

2 litres of water a day
Maximum 1200 calories a day
Minimum 30 minutes exercise a day

Let's see if that can do anything

Christmas Challenge

I have 17 weigh ins before Christmas

I've worked out that if I lose an average of 2.5lbs a week I can lose another 3 stone by Christmas which would be amazing. I really think, if I stick to the plan and do some exercise every day, that it's doable. I'm really excited at the thought of being under 20 stone by Christmas.

I am going to make a chart, and try my very best to achieve this goal.

Having A Good Day

The 7lb weight loss on Thursday has been just the spur I needed.I still can't believe it and think about it all the time. If only every week could be so kind!

Friday was pretty much a perfect day food wise, but I didn't have my lemon, multi vitamin or any water. I also didn't do any exercise.

Saturday Ididn't have much lunch because we were out and I just had fruit. Dinner was low fat sausages and mash. It was gorgeous! I only had one glass of water, and didn't take any exercise but I did have the lemon and my multivitamin.

Sunday - well it's only half past six,but so far so good. I had a perfect lunch, I've had my lemon, multi vitamin and three glasses of water (I could do with getting a 4th one in) and as for exercise...I've been brilliant

22 minutes on my exercise bike
3 minute island run (wii fit)
another 3 minute island run
2 minutes of hula hooping (wii fit again - i'd have done more but was awful at this)
9 minutes on my exercise bike
10 minutes free running (wii fit again. My run was actually more like a march but I completed the whole ten minutes)

The whole lot adds up to 462 calories. I'm so pleased with myself.

I'm a bit scared of going off the rails again if I don't lose anything. Somehow I need to get it into my head that the scales don't always show the full picture. I've lost three stone now,if I stick to it I really can do it!!!

Slimmer of the Week 7

Things have not been going well. That so-called Bad Result a month ago put me off completely, and I used it as an excuse to eat for Britain. I didn't go to Slimming World the next week, and then we went on holiday where I ate everything I wanted to. I thought and hoped I'd get straight back into it when we got home, but found it impossible, missed a third week of Slimming World and continued to eat badly - crisps,sweets, chocolate, loads of cheese, and an entire victoria sponge cake. However I made myself go to SW this week and was amazed and delighted to find I'd lost a pound. I didn't think I deserved to though and thought maybe the scales were wrong as I was at a different class. I didn't try to get back on my diet, that would be too easy for me; instead I carried on eating until Saturday when I was quite good until...we went out for a drive on a lovely sunny evening and we stopped at a fish and chip shop. We all had jumbo sausage and chips and it was delicious, but completely blew the diet. Sunday though, something clicked into place and from then I've been exercising and sticking to the plan 100%, but I was worried about being weighed in last night because a) I didn't think last weeks scales were accurate and b) because I'd been terrible for most of the week, but...



I LOST 7LBS!!!!!!!!!!

So now I can really say that I'm back on track and I'm really happy. I was Slimmer of the Week, got my 2.5 stone and my 10% certificate

05/05/2012 - 25st8
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2   lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue.
21/06/2012 - 23st13 1/2   lost 3.5lbs I make it 4lbs,but it sorts out the problem from last week
28/06/2012 - 23st10 1/2   lost 3lbs
05/07/2012 - 23st8          lost 2.5lbs
12/07/2012 - 23st4          lost 4lbs
19/07/2012 - 23st2          lost 2lbs
26/07/2012 - 23st2          didn't weigh in
02/08/2012 - 23st2          didn't weigh in
09/08/2012 - 23st2          didn't weigh in
16/08/2012 - 23st2           lost 1lb
23/08/2012 - 22st8           lost 7lbs


                            total   42lbs

I had a really good week, but a BAD result...

START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8  
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2   lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue.
21/06/2012 - 23st13 1/2   lost 3.5lbs I make it 4lbs,but it sorts out the problem from last week
28/06/2012 - 23st10 1/2   lost 3lbs
05/07/2012 - 23st8          lost 2.5lbs
12/07/2012 - 23st4          lost 4lbs
19/07/2012 - 23st2          lost 2lbs


                            total   34lbs 

I was so so disappointed with this. I'd barely eaten during the week, and done lots of exercise so I felt I deserved more. The trouble is, that something got into my head and told me not to bother in future. So I didn't. I have eaten so much in the past week that I'm really dreading Thursday and I shudder to think how much weight I can put on during our holiday. I'm really gutted and down in the dumps.

Slimmer of the week 6

I lost 4lbs at my weigh in last night and I'm delighted! If I lose 2.5lbs for the next two weeks I will get to my target of 22 stone something by my holiday: and 3 more pounds and I get to a 2.5 stone loss!! 4lbs and I've lost 10% of my bodyweight!!!! Hopefully I'll reach all those targets in the next 2 weeks.

START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8    
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2   lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue.
21/06/2012 - 23st13 1/2   lost 3.5lbs I make it 4lbs,but it sorts out the problem from last week
28/06/2012 - 23st10 1/2   lost 3lbs
05/07/2012 - 23st8          lost 2.5lbs
12/07/2012 - 23st4          lost 4lbs


                            total   32lbs 

Targets

I thought I could make a calendar to add targets if and when I think of them. They are just targets to aim for and the world won't end if I don't make it my the date I've set but I just thought it would help if I had things written down.


27th July - To get my 2 Stone award by today
27th July - To be 22st13.5 There's no way I can do this now but I want to get as near as I can
9th August - To weigh the same or less than I did on the 27th July. I miss a weeks weigh in because of our holiday so I really don't want to put weight on.
1st September - To be able to wear that size 28 skirt comfortably
9th September - To be able to walk to Morrisons and back
30th September - To need new bras
20th December - To weight 20st5.5 This is because I entered a 26 week challenge on minimins.com to lose 50lbs by Christmas


As time goes on and I think of more I'll update the list, and I'll also add if I hit the target or how close I came.

Clothes sizes

I've been moaning lately about how I've lost two stone but don't fit into clothes a size smaller. I came to the conclusion that the bigger you are, the more weight it takes to drop a dress size, which I do believe, but I realised today, that the skirt I wear most often, I also have the identical skirt, one size smaller, still in the bag. As my original skirt is huge on me, I felt confident this one would fit, but I can't even squeeze into it, and the zip is nowhere near fastening. Incredibly it is 7 inches (18 cm) smaller in the waist! According to the Evans website (where the skirts came from) the difference in the sizes should only be one inch! I have another new skirt from there, two sizes smaller than the one thats too small and the difference in the waist is less than one inch. Its incredibly annoying as there are hardly any high street shops that cater for plus sized women,so we rely on mail order. I understand sizes vary from shop to shop, but to have such huge discrepancies within a store is ridiculous. I can't wait until I can buy clothes from a wide variety of shops.

Slimmer of the week 5

I forgot to update this on Thursday. Amazingly (especially as I didn't lose much) I was Slimmer of the week again!!

START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8      
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2   lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue.
21/06/2012 - 23st13 1/2   lost 3.5lbs I make it 4lbs,but it sorts out the problem from last week
28/06/2012 - 23st10 1/2   lost 3lbs
05/06/2012 - 23st8          lost 2.5lbs


                            total   28lbs


I have finally reached my 2 stone loss!!!!


I don't think there is any way possible that I can get to 22st11.5 in the next three weeks now, although I'll keep on trying. As you can see from my stats my weight loss has been falling a bit every week, as I expected.
In the long run it doesn't matter. I had 205lbs to lose when I started this diet two months ago and now I have 177. I'm so pleased with that.

Compliments and Remarks

I thought I would record any compliment or remark I get regarding my weight loss. If I keep them all in one place, maybe it will inspire me along the way.

28/6/2012 - Hazel from Slimming World said she could see a slight difference in my (she gestured this) jaw/double chin

Disappointed

I am so very disappointed that, with only 2.5lbs to lose before I reach the two stone mark, none of my clothes are too big for me,and none of my size smaller clothes fit me at all. I thought a stone was supposed to be a dress size, and maybe it is for smaller sized people, but it clearly isn't for me! I wonder where my weight has gone from because two stone is a lot, and yet I look no different at all. I guess it was spread very thinly over my vast body and it will take another two stone for any visible difference. I'm just a little sad because I've bought a few things, one size down, for my holiday and now don't have a hope of wearing them. I don't know if it makes sense or not. My mum thinks it's illogical to buy things in that size, but to me it seems madness to buy things in the size I still am but also was almost two stone ago.


Ah well, all I can do is keep going. I like the diet, I'm very happy with my losses so far, I have high hopes of being Slimmer of the Month, although I don't know how they work it out; so overall things are going fantastically, it's just that I'm so impatient!

A bit of an update

I haven't written in my blog for a few weeks, but I enjoy looking back at old posts so I'll try to write at least a couple of times a week.


The last few weeks have been amazing. I've lost 13.5lbs, and been slimmer of the week every week (although two weeks were joint with other people), I've been doing a little bit of exercise too. I feel that this diet offers everything I need at the moment and I've so happy with the amount I've lost and how quickly the weight's come off.


My two current targets are


Get my stone and a half award (2.5lbs to go)
Get in the 22's by the time we go on holiday (11lbs to go)


I'm really worried about putting weight on on holiday, and I'm sure it's inevitable. I don't want to eat any pastries, and I want to stick to my plan as much as possible, but equally I'll be on holiday so i should be able to relax a bit. I really hope the weathers good because I want to swim every day, and I hope to be able to walk further by then. I want to take a box full of things like tuna, crackerbread, baking potatoes etc just to be on the safe side. Fruit and salad will be easy to get hold of, which just leaves the dairy stuff. I've heard it's difficult to get hold of extra low fat products so I will have to be careful.

Slimmer of the Week 4

Today's little update


START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8      
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2  lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue.
21/06/2012 - 23st13 1/2   lost 3.5lbs I make it 4lbs,but it sorts out the problem from last week
28/06/2012 - 23st10 1/2   lost 3lbs


                            total   25.5lbs

Slimmer of The Week 3

So much for having gained weight this week. I'm Slimmer of the Week again!!!! This never gets boring.Today I got 7 apples, 2 mug shots,a pot shot,2 grapefruits, a punnet of apricots, an orange,a satsuma, a fridge magnet and a sticker.No certificate again. HOWEVER I also reached my Slimming World stone and got a certificate and sticker for that. So...


START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8      
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2   lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue with slimming world
21/06/2012 - 23st13 1/2   lost 3.5lbs I make it 4lbs,but it sorts out the problem from last week


                            total   22.5lbs

Weigh In tomorrow...

...and according to my scales I have gained about 4lbs. I don't think they can be right but I'm not feeling very confident about the weigh in.

I've been quite good this week, I've drunk lots of water, and I've been trying to do 15 minutes exercise each day (the only day I missed was Monday) so I'd better have a loss although I know theres no way i'll get my stone certificate.

I've got a few new aims/targets so I might as well write them all here

Drink 7 glasses of water a day * *
Limit myself to seven syns a day *
Eat 7 superfree foods a day *
Do 15 minutes of exercise a day, broken down into 5 or 10 minute chunks if necessary
Write a food diary every day, even if I haven't been good
Have hot water and lemon for my first drink of the day

* = Not on Thursday
* = Unless I'm out for the day as I need to be within easy reach of a toilet!

I am still dieting

It seems to have been ages since I've updated my blog, I'm not sure why because I am still dieting,but I don't feel like I'm doing it properly because I haven't been following the 777 plan. I have six more weigh ins before my holiday though so I really want to get stuck back in. I'd originally thought I'd like to lose another stone by the holiday but I wonder if I try really hard, whether I can get in the 22s? Even 22st13.5 would be ok. That would mean losing 18lbs in 6 weeks which is probably impossible but it's just a target and would be amazing if I could reach it, but still fantastic if I lose a stone.

Slimmer of the week 2

This week has been so so hard.I've been unbelievably hungry all afternoon, every afternoon BUT much to my surprise and delight I lost 3.5lbs and was joint slimmer of the week. For some reason we didn't get a certificate but we I got a sticker, a magnet, a mug shot, an apple,an orange, a pear and a satsuma.How amazing is that. 

START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8        
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2   lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs
14/06/2012 - 24st3 1/2     lost 3.5lbs I have to say, I make it 3lbs but who am I to argue with slimming world


                            total   19lbs

Targets and rewards

My target weight loss is half a stone a month (although I would like it to be more) but I've been reading about people setting themselves rewards for reaching their targets.I quite like the idea but I don't know what to reward myself with. Obviously not food - I am not a dog. I don't have a lot of money either so that limits things a bit.

I literally can't think of a single thing - it scares me how much I rewarded myself with food. And punished myself. And filled in any gaps in my day. I really want to change my thinking but I'm still a million miles away from being there. I seem to think about food all the time and the day really drags.

Food Diary for 12/6/12

water with lemon speed 1
6 glasses of water
1 glass of diet coke


nectarine speed 2
slice of pineapple speed 3
6 wholemeal crackerbread
2 laughing cow light triangles 
4 seafood sticks
apple speed 4


chicken speed 5
spinach speed 6
spoonful of salad cream 3 syns


jacket potato
2 teaspoons of flora light 3 syns
tuna speed 7
cottage cheese
spinach speed 8


slice of pineapple speed 9


It seems to have been a bad day, and I've certainly been starving all day, but it doesn't look too bad. Overdosed on the speed food though!

Food Diary for 11/6/12

I'm being very brave writing this but I might as well get it out there.

Water and lemon
6 glasses of water
glass of diet coke

2 slices of granary bread
tin of baked beans
2 laughing cow light triangles
nectarine

jacket potato
chicken
spoonful of flora light
spoonful of salad cream

2 hifi mint bars
mango and passionfruit muller light

God know the syns.Probably within my allowance but not of my 777plan. Better day tomorrow.

Food Diary for 10/6/12

Water with lemon speed 1
6 glasses of water
1 glass of diet coke


6 wholemeal crackerbread
2 laughing cow light triangles
spoonful of cottage cheese
spinach speed 2
apple speed 3
plum speed 4
clementine speed 5
packet of velvet crunch crisps 4 syns


chicken speed 6
roast potatoes
broccoli speed 7
gravy 1.5 syns
mint muller light


It's incredible you can have a good day and still eat crisps!

I dreamed about chocolate

In my dream I had absolutely loads of it (massive bars of cadburys) squirrelled away and I was going to eat it in secret when there was nobody around, but I was never alone.

This is exactly what I was like before my diet, but strangely I haven't missed chocolate at all in the last month. I do get my mikado sticks in the evening so I guess I am getting some. I don't know what I miss really which must be a good thing.

Food Diary for 9/6/12

Today was potentially disastrous.


Water and lemon speed 1
5 glasses of water
2 glasses of diet coke


8 seafood sticks
5 wholemeal crackerbread
2 laughing cow light triangles


4 sausages 6 syns or 1,000,000 syns
slimming world chips
baked beans speed 2


4 mikado sticks 2 syns


As far as I know the Morrisons low fat sausages are 0.5 syns,but there is a chance I might have had the wrong ones,which would be about a million syns.


I'm really fed up that I might have wasted syns on something that wasn't even that nice.If I did, I doubt i'll lose this week,and I failed with water and speed food too. I will be brilliant today to make up for it.

Some more inspirational quotes

Being overweight is hard. Losing weight is hard. Choose your hard

Instead of giving yourself reasons why you can't, give yourself reasons why you can or should

Without self discipline, success is impossible. 


Success does not come to you, you go to it


Our greatest weakness lies in giving up
The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time


Do NOT reward yourself with food.  You are NOT a dog


Change your thoughts and you change your world 
 

Really grumpy today

I'm in a bit of a bad mood today. I tried on the size 24 swimming costume and unsurprisingly it doesn't fit my size 30/32 body. The last time I wore it was December 2007 when I weighed 19 stone. I also tried on a size 28 skirt that I really want to take on holiday and, what a shock, it doesn't fit me either. Looking at my reflection I don't think there's any way I will squeeze into it in 6 and a half weeks. However I am generally an optimistic soul so I remain hopeful and I'm going to try it on every Saturday and report back my findings.


9/6/12 Tried on the holiday skirt and I could do the button up but the zip wouldn't budge. Am bulging out everywhere in a very unpleasant way.


I will update this next week.


Another reason I'm so grumpy is because I stood on the scales this morning and have put on half a stone. In my heart I know its not possible,and that the only thing my scales are good for is to trip over in the night but I still feel upset.

Food Diary for 8/6/12

I was absolutely starving yesterday. Not sure why but maybe it was the after effects of Thursdays Chinese. I did keep to plan but there was a large and unwanted blip in the middle.


Water and lemon speed 1
6 glasses of water
1 glass of diet coke


6 wholemeal crackerbread
2 eggs
3 rashers of bacon
apple speed 2
plum speed 3
nectarine speed 4
satsuma speed 5
2 HiFi light bars 6 syns in total


jacket potato
half a teaspoon flora light 1 syn
tuna speed 6
spinach speed 7
mandarin muller light


I completely wasted my syns on the hifi light bars and I didn't even like them. I had a box of six, gave two away at class, and the children had the others. I definitely won't buy them again.

Slimmer of the Week

So I went to Slimming World last night pretty sure I would have lost something, and really hoping for 2lbs to get my 7lb certificate, and to reach my personal stone. When I weighed in I was delighted to have lost 3.5lbs. The ladies weighing said that there had been some good losses this week so I never thought I'd be Slimmer of the Week, but hooray!!! I was! I'm hopeless in group situations so I was really embarrassed and pathetic, but so so pleased with myself. I got a certificate, a fridge magnet, a sticker and a basket of fruit. Then I got my 7lb award which was a certificate and a sticker. The certificates are now proudly displayed on the fridge and I hope to add to them soon. Only 5.5lbs to go until my next one.


I feel so inspired now. I've decided to do the 777 plan on a Friday, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, then at the weekend I will have sausages, beans and chips or something similar. The sausages are only half a syn each and the chips and beans are free so nothing too drastic, but a bit of a treat; then on a Sunday we have a roast - the meat is free, the roast potatoes are done the Slimming World way and are free and so is the veg. The only thing with syns is gravy and it's only 1.5. Thursdays are a bit different because I don't like to eat and drink loads before my weigh in, then I can treat myself to something nice for dinner afterwards.


I honestly can't believe how proud I am that I got a sticker!



START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8           
08/05/2012 - 25st6           lost 2lbs
18/05/2012 - 25st1           lost 5lbs
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2  lost 2.5lbs
31/05/2012 - 24st10         lost 2.5lbs
07/06/2012 - 24st6 1/2     lost 3.5lbs


                            total   15.5lbs 

Food Diary for 7/6/12

Today was a shocker food wise because it was my 15th wedding anniversary. 


6 crackerbread
2 laughing cow light triangles
half a mugshot 
spinach speed 1
cottage cheese
satsuma speed 2


So far so good


Then...


prawns
sweet chilli sauce
egg fried rice
3 spring rolls    Yes three but they were smaller than the ones we usually have.


I don't really know how many syns that was but I think approximately 22. Back on plan today.

It's My Weigh In Today

It's my weigh in today and once again I'm worried. I know that I've been really good, I just hope it shows on the scales.


I did the 777 challenge for three days, and it wasn't too bad. Hardest was drinking the water, I didn't really miss the syns. If it works I wonder whether it's possible to do three days a week like that and the other days just following the plan normally?


I'm really worrying about our holiday now. I only have one swimming costume and it's size 24. I'm still a 30/32 so I don't even think it's even worth trying on. I've looked online for a bigger one that doesn't cost the earth but can't find anything as I don't want, and can't afford to spend much on something I don't plan to need again. This time next year hopefully I'll be a lot smaller.


It's my 15th wedding anniversary today and we are celebrating by having my favourite chinese meal. I'm going to try and have it in the most slimming world way possible though. This is what I'm having, and I've rounded up the syns so, if anything, it's healthier than than this.


Prawns 
sweet chilli sauce 3syns
egg fried rice 4.5 syns
vegetable spring rolls 13 syns


I know it's a lot of syns but I think hope in reality it's nothing like that. It will all be cooked at home, no oil used and it is our anniversary!!

Food Diary for 6/6/12

Yesterday was a good day


1 water with lemon speed 1
6 glasses of water
1 glass of diet coke


apple speed 2
satsuma speed 3
nectarine speed 4
pear speed 5
6 wholemeal crackerbreads
2 laughing cow light triangles
spinach speed 6
spoonful of cottage cheese


1/10 of a weightwatchers sausage 0.5syn
jacket potato
spoonful of flora light 2 syns
tuna speed 7
spinach speed 8
raspberry and cranberry muller light
4 mikado sticks 2 syns

I don't know how I ended up having an extra speed food.I don't know whether that's good or bad.

Food Diary for 5/6/12

Not as good today.


1 lemon in hot water speed 1
6 glasses of water


6 crackerbread 
2 laughing cow light triangles
spinach speed 2
spoonful of cottage cheese
apple speed 3
half a mug shot 1 syn
packet of velvet crisps 4 syns


few pieces of chicken speed 4
jacket potato
tuna speed 5
spinach speed 6
cottage cheese
mandarin muller light
4 mikado sticks 2 syns


So I had one speed food too little. I kept to my syns though,and hardest of all I had my 7 glasses of water. One more day to go until weigh in - I better have lost something this week.

Food Diary for 4/6/2012

1 cup of hot water with lemon
6 glasses of water
1 glass of diet coke


6 wholemeal crackerbread 
2 laughing cow triangles
spinach speed 1
cottage cheese
apple speed 2
nectarine speed 3
kiwi speed 4
pear speed 5


jacket potato
tuna speed 6
spinach speed 7
cottage cheese
low fat spread 2 syns
raspberry and cranberry muller light yogurt


4 mikado sticks 2 syns


I did it!! I stuck to the plan perfectly. 

Why Do People Give Up Diets

The longest I've ever been on a strict diet was about 9 months. I did amazingly, even though during that time I had a holiday and Christmas. I lost over ten stone and looked and felt amazing. I was wearing a size 14-16 clothes (a size I hadn't been since reaching adulthood); but suddenly I couldn't do it any more and I started picking - and once I started I really couldn't stop. I think the trouble was that I had been on a complete meal replacement diet for all that time. Three packs a day, 8 glasses of water, and one week in four I could have a small amount of tuna or chicken with some salad. I have never experienced compulsion to eat, the way I did then. I didn't care what I ate, and I remember cooking some food and being so impatient that I ate it when it was still frozen in the middle. I was completely out of control. I had also been experiencing stomach pains of indescribable agony since Christmas (my meltdown happened at Easter). I went to the doctors and was immediately referred to a&e,it turned  out I had gallstones, and one had got trapped in the opening of my pancreas,blocking it and causing pancreatitis. I was in a bit of a state apparently. Now I have no gall bladder , and no wish to experience pain like that again! Now there is a warning on the Cambridge Diet literature that it can cause gall stones so I'm obviously not the only one to suffer.


Although that diet was quite easy to stick to as it was so clear cut, took food out of the equation completely, and most of all had huge weight losses week after week, it's clearly not good for you. Apart from the frozen food madness and near death pancreatitis experience, I lost a lot of hair - at least 50%. It also costs £50 a week.


I'm convinced that Slimming World is the way to go. No food is banned. You have syns every day so if you really want something you can have it, but syns are like currency and you become unbelievably frugal with them.However there are low syn versions of almost everything. I went shopping yesterday and bought some velvet crunch crisps (haven't tried them yet but I've heard they're lovely) which are 4 syns a bag, whereas Walkers are 9 syns. Snack a Jacks are only 4.5 syns too, so it's possible to satisfy a crisp craving without wasting precious syns. Another amazing discovery I've made is Mikado biscuits. Biscuits were my biggest problem. I LOVED them and could easily eat a packet in one go. Unfortunately they're incredibly high in syns - a Malted Milk (my favourite) contains 2, a Jaffa Cake 2.5, a Digestive is 3.5 for a small one,and a Shortbread finger is 5!! Mikado biscuits are little biscuit sticks covered in chocolate (I bought milk choc and Daim,but there is also dark choc, white choc and hazelnut)They contain just half a syn each!!!They're tiny - you're not getting anything amazing, but they feel like such a treat. I had four last night andlook forward to having some more tonight IF I stick to the 777 challenge and drink 7 glasses of water and eat 7 speed foods though. There's an incentive!


I'm sorry for rambling but to sum up...


Why do people give up diets? I think it's all down to sustainability, which is why I really hope Slimming World will be different.

New Challenge

I've had a dodgy weekend for food. Yesterday I ate so much that I still feel full of food and guilt now. I ate (and this is embarrassing to write):-


Brunch


4 eggs
4 rashers of bacon
2 slices of wholemeal bead with flora light
2 slices of ham from the fridge, standing up while my food was cooking
1 cold weight watchers sausage, as above
Some Tomato Ketchup
1 apple


Dinner


Roast Chicken
Lots of roast potatoes (done in the slimming world way)
Broccoli
A fair bit of gravy (made from granules)
A strawberry Muller Light


It's not really what I had but the sheer quantity of bacon and eggs; and I didn't need or even want the stolen ham or sausage. I didn't have any water yesterday either, let alone the hot water with lemon I've been having every morning.


TODAY EVERYTHING CHANGES


I've been reading about the 777 challenge. Basically you have to have 


7 glasses of water
7 speed or superspeed foods 
7 syns (no more than)


and I want to give it a go


This is my planned diet for Monday - Thursday (not including dinner on Thurday after weigh in)


cup of hot water with lemon speed 1


cup of tea (with splash of skimmed milk from HexA)

Lunch

6 crackerbread (HexB)
2 light cow cheese triangles (half of HexA)
handful of baby spinach speed 2
spoonful of fat free cottage cheese
apple speed 3

Mid Afternoon

carrot sticks speed 4
2 light cow cheese triangles (half of HexA)
kiwi fruit speed 5

Dinner

jacket potato

tin of tuna speed 6

teaspoonful of flora light

handful of baby spinach speed 7

spoonful of fat free cottage cheese

muller light yogurt

I want to buy lots of different types of fruit so I can have lots of variety (I'm thinking strawberries, pears, pineapple, cherries, satsumas, nectarines) but I have some kiwis that are just about ripe so that's why i've put them down.I will probably continue with the apple with lunch.

I feel a much more positive after writing this down. The hardest thing is going to be drinking 7 glasses of water but I think you can include the tea and water with hot lemon so in reality it's only 5 glasses. I could probably have squash as well but will just have it plain for the next few days.

A Little Bit Of Inspiration

I read this in the paper today


When someone is nasty or treats you badly, don’t take it personally. It says nothing about you but a lot about them


Pretty much every time I go out,someone will laugh at me and call me names. I can understand it but I hope I will never do the same to anyone.

Second Weigh In

Last night was my second weigh in and I lost 2.5lbs. My head is quite pleased with this but my heart thinks it should be a stone or more. At times like this I wish I was doing The Cambridge Diet for speedy weight loss, but I LOVE the Slimming World group and enjoy the food,so I suppose it's no comparison.


Here's my updated chart


START DATE 5th MAY 2012

05/05/2012 - 25st8
08/05/2012 - 25st6
18/05/2012 - 25st1
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2
31/05/2012 - 24st10


Two more pounds until I've lost a stone. I really hope I can achieve that by next Thursday. If I could lose a stone every six weeks I'd be delighted, but in reality it's not very likely.

Weigh In Worries

I've got my weigh in tomorrow and once again the scales haven't moved. I don't know why I weigh myself at home as 1) You're not supposed to and 2) My scales only go up to 22 1/2 stone and then go round again so currently I weigh 3 1/2 stone according to them. 

I really hope I have lost some weight, because I've found this really great free app called TargetWeight. All you have to do is put in your weight and height, then your target weight (I think I put 11 stone), and target date (I put the 3rd July 2014) and it gives you lbs to go, days to go,your BMI, and I think it tracks you weight loss too. I want to update it every Thursday night to track my progress. The BMI box is even colour coordinated to whether you are severely obese,obese, overweight etc. It also shows that I would still be overweight at 11 stone.

Clothes Problems

Although I know I'm hideous, I very rarely get depressed about my size. I don't blame genetics or thyroid imbalance- I know I am 100% responsible for what I've done to myself, the way I've abused myself, even though I don't think I did it deliberately.


Right at this moment, however, I am feeling depressed. We're going on holiday in 8 weeks, and had I carried on the the Cambridge Diet, I might have lost 3 stone by then but that will not be the case now. To be honest at the size I am, a few stone either way probably doesn't look that different, but I really don't want (and can't afford) to buy any more clothes at this size, and there isn't much available even if I did want to.


I've just had a good look through my wardrobe and I have so many clothes,most of them brand new with tags on, the trouble is, nothing fits me.


I have:-


A black skirt that I have worn almost non stop for the last three years. It is truly horrible and if I have the choice, I wouldn't be seen dead in it.


A quite new dark denim skirt


A dark bluey purple jersey skirt which I don't wear out because it's very thin and drapes itself to my body. Also nothing goes with it. However it is the most comfortable skirt ever and I wear it round the house all the time.


A long mid denim skirt in a thin chambray material. This is very long, maybe too long, and has a tear that I've repaired near the zip. Its the only thing suitable for a scorching hot day like today.


That is all that fits me.


Then there's


A brown linen skirt that will hopefully fit me in a stones time


A black linen skirt that is smarter than I would happily wear. It will fit me in a stones time.


A long blue denim skirt that will probably take two stone to squeeze into


Plus lots of other things that will clothe me during my weight loss journey, but that won't fit for my holiday.


As I tried and failed to squash my belly into size 30 clothes I wondered how on earth things got this bad. It wasn't long ago that I was a comfortable 16 and sometimes even a 14.

First Weigh In

I suppose I should mention that my diet didn't actually start with slimming world. I actually started dieting on Saturday 5th May doing a combination of low carb and meal replacement packs. I've done meal replacement before and was very successful (until I stopped and the weight piled on) and wanted to do that again, but the rules have changed and my BMI is too high, hence the low carb. Anyway I found it really hard and also the cost (about £30 a week for two packs a day) was just too high.


My weight on the 5th May was 25 stone 8lbs. I only had one weigh in and I lost 2lbs.


So these are my weigh ins so far and I'll update them every week.


START DATE 5th MAY 2012


05/05/2012 - 25st8
08/05/2012 - 25st6
18/05/2012 - 25st1
24/05/2012 - 24st12 1/2

Haven't Lost Anything

Its my first weigh in tomorrow evening and I'm quite worried because, according to my scales,I haven't lost any weight. I did think this might happen as I did a meal replacement diet for ten days first,so it might take a while for my body to adjust,but I was really hoping I'd lose something.

Yesterday Was Not A Good Day

Yesterday was not a typical Slimming World day. I was really busy all day. It was my daughters birthday, my mum came round, and my husband finished work early. Also the boiler is playing up, so I had a plumber booked to come. Anyway, all those things meant I din't eat very well


Breakfast - Nothing
Lunch ( about 4.30) 2 M&S meringue nests (2.5 syns each) with lots of fresh strawberries
Dinner (9.00) 4 reduced fat sausages (1 syn each) and some slimming world chips, a Muller light yoghurt and then a peach Activia yoghurt (1 syn)


I stayed within my syns, but didn't have anything very nutritious. I have no idea why I had to have the second yoghurt, I didn't even enjoy it. Today will be better. Hopefully.

My Vital Statistics

As you have probably gathered from the title of my blog, I am fat. I might well be the fattest person you've ever seen. I don't know if I've ever seen anyone bigger because I have a distorted picture of what I look like in my head - I always think I look quite normal until I catch a glimpse of myself and then I feel really shocked and distressed. I avoid mirrors from the neck down and never have my photo taken. If I was ever abducted, the only picture they would have to show on tv would be my wedding photo. I got married 15 years ago, have put on 10 stone since then, and luckily that ringlet hairstyle was a one day only sensation. I still haven't forgiven hairdresser.


So anyway, lets get down to the nitty gritty...


I am 40 years old, married with two children. I am also 5'5 1/2" tall (approx 166cm) and I weigh 25 stone 1lb (351lbs or 159kg). My BMI is 57.5, and apparently I should weigh 152lbs or under. I currently wear a size 30/32clothes, but this is as big as they get, it's impossible to get anything bigger,and there is hardly any choice for me now. Hopefully I will never again have to buy clothes in this size.

Introduction

Can I just start by saying this isn't a travel blog. I won't be going far unfortunately.


I want this to be an account of my weight loss. I'm not expecting anyone to read it, but maybe it will help me come to terms with my problems with the unhappiness that being so big has caused me, and then I can break this vicious circle once and for all.